Bitterness settled over Peregryns heart as heavily as the loneliness had. Towards those who’d abandoned him, towards his pathetic pack, his hateful mother, and even towards the forest itself for not being good enough for Astra to make her stay.
Perhaps it wasn’t good enough for him.
Thinking about leaving his place broke his heart as clearly as Astra had, but the more he thought about it, the more he wished to be gone. As beautiful and peaceful as the lake was, as comfortable and safe as the forest made him feel, it simply wasn’t home anymore. Astra had never planned on staying here; perhaps Gryn should heed her last opinion and abandon the forest.
What did he have to stay for, anyways?
Then again, did he have anywhere else to go? The patch of heaven beside the lake had been the closest thing to a home as he’d ever felt, but he could think of nothing but Astra when he was here. As the days passed by and the leaves began to fade to gold, Peregryn could feel a restless energy building in his paws.
He needed company, but didn’t like the constant flow of wolves who came in and out of his life as if he was some second choice. He wasn’t sure he still wanted to build his clan, not without Astra beside him, and couldn’t find it in himself to try and trust another stranger. The dark girl had softened his heart, but froze any faith he had in the world. It had been much easier before, when it was easy to not care about others. To think only of his next meal and hiding place to sleep off months of travel.
Perhaps he should just leave the valley all together and look for Astra. To hell with these trees if it meant he could find her again, live together. Be happy.
Tears welled up in the boys dual colored eyes as he sat hunched along the shore, staring at the calm water as he wondered what his future held. His own scent drifted from the trees behind him, but it wasn’t as much of a comfort as usual. His shortened tail curled closer to his flank, ears splayed in distress at the whirlwind of hateful and upsetting thoughts conflicting each other.
Perhaps it really was time to move on.
Mar 27, 2018 12:24 PM
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