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[summons] [Crixus] | Evening | Raining

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Larisa paced beneath the trees. She was torn, conflicted, unhappy. That last one wasn’t new though. She’d put off the announcement about pups but it was growing awkward. Crixus hadn’t said anything. Was he oblivious, did he think she was trying to conceal it? She knew she couldn’t for very much longer no matter what she did. The rain trickled down onto her, freezing cold as it was. Still, she liked to stand in the water of the bay, this was almost pleasant in comparison.

Still, something tugged at her. She glanced to the east. Instead of calling for her mate she could just set off through the trees, swim across the bay and vanish into the night. The thought appealed to her. She pressed her eyes shut for a moment. Why couldn’t she run? Why didn’t her legs just carry her away to somewhere else?

Her eyes snapped back open and her muzzle pointed skyward, calling out for her mate. Even her howl was a lie, it sounded so much more pleasant than she felt. She took a deep breath and fixed a placid smile on her face. Why was she doing this? Why, why, why?

She didn’t understand this places hold on her. She didn’t want to stay, but she couldn’t seem to go. Maybe something would shove her out. Maybe her unloving mate would finally say something so foul that she walked away from this all. Maybe the stress of living in this place would eat her from the inside out and it wouldn’t be her problem to worry about anymore.


Jul 20, 2018 10:55 PM

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Crixus Blanc Rainy Staff
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Sitting pensively beneath an overhang of rock near the beach, listening to the combined sounds of rain hitting the already saturated sand and the crashing of waves against the shore, Crixus’s ears just barely twitched in recognition of the summons. He wasn’t particularly keen on leaving his nice, dry space for the rain, but with a light sigh he resigned himself to his fate nonetheless.

Hesitating, he tilted his own chin skyward to send a short, deep note back in the direction Larisa’s own call had come from, to let her know he was on his way, and set off at a brisk trot.

// you can decide if he is visible on her turn or not!


Jul 21, 2018 03:47 PM — Post #1

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As soon as the howl had left her mouth she wished she could have sucked it back in. She drew in a breath, hoping, maybe, somehow the sound would come back with it. But she knew it wouldn’t, and it didn’t take long for Crixus’ bark to call back to her and she knew he was on his way.

She realized now that her fur was wet, and she likely didn’t look the picture of a glowing mother. Everything about this was just wrong in some way. She drew in and out a few deep breaths and gave a solid shake to fling some of the water off at least.

Finally Larisa sat - that felt a little more dignified - and tried to conjure up an expression that looked pleased and warm. Her eyes tracked across the trees until she saw the pale form of her mate coming closer. She waited, looking demure. Maybe she didn’t need to say anything about the pups still. Maybe he wouldn’t notice and wouldn’t say anything. Maybe her mind could be made up in some way that gave her some peace - but she doubted that.


Jul 22, 2018 04:45 PM — Post #2

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Brushing past a tree, Crixus slowed as Larisa came into view. He eyed her curiously, noting that she seemed unhurried as she sat there prettily, saying nothing. He offered her a small smile and crossed the distance to touch his muzzle to her cheek if she would allow it, then sat in front of her.

“You called?” he asked rhetorically, his ears twitching.


Jul 23, 2018 11:38 AM — Post #3

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She couldn’t do it. Finally, her mind felt settled, a little more settled at least. Right there looking at Crixus, remembering the conversations she had had with all of the island inhabitants over the past few weeks. The fact that Crixus had no greeting for her other than to say that ‘she called’.

“Hello dear,” she replied, her smile growing a little more. She at least remembered her manners, and the fact that she was supposed to love Crixus. Maybe he’d already given up on that fantasy. It would make things easier she imagined.

“Yes, I just wanted to see if you’d like to rest with me here for the night, a little quiet time together.” She stayed sitting, her front legs and fluff mostly covering her slightly plump stomach - she thought. Unlike the howl, the words that she was pregnant stayed firmly inside her mouth. Not right now. She couldn’t do it right now.


Jul 23, 2018 05:01 PM — Post #4

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The male’s tail swept across the ground amiably when she greeted him, head tilting slightly at her offer. It seemed a strange request, but he simply nodded. “That would be lovely,” he huffed.

Though he didn’t notice much of a physical difference in her, it had never occurred to Crixus that they would not concieve. In his mind, she was pregnant, of course, from the very first, and without question. She didn’t need to tell him- he would expect it.


Jul 24, 2018 11:59 AM — Post #5

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At his agreement she slid forward a little until she was resting on her stomach with her paws out before her. She didn’t really want to move anywhere at the moment, and the rain didn’t bother her too much.

She glanced at him but didn’t know what to say anymore. Her plans had been to say something about her pregnancy but she realized now that she wasn’t going to. What else did they even possibly have to talk about?

Larisa didn’t want to bring anything else up. She didn’t want to talk about the pack, nor the other members of it. She didn’t want to talk about the rest of the winter, nor the spring. She didn’t want to hear about what Crixus had planned nor say a damn thing about what she did or thought about when she was alone. She realized with him here that she really just wanted him gone again.


Jul 25, 2018 07:03 PM — Post #6

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Watching as she settled herself, he moved to curl around her, his head resting over her back if she would allow. The tip of his tail twitched, and he lay thoughtfully for a few moments, but the tension in the air was palpable.

“Are you feeling unwell?” he asked, not intending to prod into her business too obviously.


Jul 25, 2018 08:14 PM — Post #7

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Larisa settled her own head down onto her paws when he rested his over her back. She thought perhaps they’d just both wallow in their own minds but it wasn’t meant to be.

“Hmmm, no, I’m just tired I think.” She gave a little yawn to punctuate the idea. “I just wanted to rest together for a little while.” But now she didn’t want that because she realized it was all wrong in the end.

It wasn’t how it had been in the summer and fall. They weren’t walking through the trees, joking about her howl attracting worthless play things towards them. They weren’t enjoying the thought of their new island and what their future might hold.

She knew where it had all gone wrong - Kaya. When it was just Larisa and Crixus it had been great, but it was no longer anything near great now.


Jul 25, 2018 08:21 PM — Post #8

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Humming softly at her response, he lifted his head to groom the back of her neck. He was doing his best to show her affection, appreciation, whatever it was she wanted, but she had closed herself off from him, he realized. He wasn’t sure why, exactly, having given her everything she requested. It was a concern, but he would allow her to continue to pass it off as nothing being wrong.

After a time, he lowered his head again, chin resting on her back. If she didn’t want to talk, he certainly wouldn’t press the issue. Sometimes silent contemplation was much more welcome, anyway.


Jul 25, 2018 09:46 PM — Post #9

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Silence was good. His lick to the back of her neck was unexpected but she settled herself readily enough again. At least they weren’t talking. That was always too much to try to handle. She knew that some days the words that came out of her mouth were going to be the truth, and when that finally happened it would be the end of the end for her.

Finally he settled further, and she did too, laying her head down onto her paws and letting her eyes drift closed. She could almost pretend things were okay when they were like this - almost.

[Fade?]


Jul 26, 2018 09:30 PM — Post #10

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