So I was chatting up a storm in the cbox because as you have probably noticed I do everything either 0 or 100, and mentioned making an IRL drama/damage thread in case anyone ever wonders wtf I’m talking about in my life with regards to brain stuff, relationship stuff, family stuff, etc.
If you don’t care and/or feel weird reading my PERSONAL LIFE by all means tab out idgaf my peeps.
This is hardly going to be comprehensive, but if you have questions or also want to share your venting/drama/tmi/etc you are welcome to ask/add!
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- brain stuff
I want to mention this because I’ve run into this, a lot, and want to offer to talk to anyone about it at any time. I have major depression. Uh, not as in colloquially “I am super depressed sadface” but as in the clinical name is major depression or major depressive… disorder, or whatever they call it, on my doctor’s notes it lists off my issues and major depression is in the fun fun list of problems. If you ever want or need to talk someone, please message me, I am cool with giving out my contact info of various kinds for that purpose. Just knowing I had someone’s contact info in the past has made me feel better before, so don’t worry about bothering me. On the flipside, if you see me displaying any of my own signs of the depression getting bad (honesty hour, I am/have been heavily suicidal at times), do not hesitate to tell me I’m being a depressionbutt and need to get up and AFK and hug my dog or walk the block or something and stop simmering in sorrow. Is cool.
I get double the fun by having major depression hooked up with general anxiety disorder and panic disorder. I have all the anxiety. All of it. I could list off symptoms to explain How Anxious I Am, but to tl;dr it, without medication I am essentially on the constant cusp of an anxiety attack simply by being alive (not just awake—I have panic attacks in my sleep frequently, which is part of why I have such a shit sleep-wake rhythm).
Since I’m listing all my head issues I’ll go ahead and include being on seizure medication to control chronic headaches/migraines because WHY NOT INCLUDE IT ALL WHEE but that doesn’t really impact anything other than a lot of whining about headaches, and generally meaning that if I am actually bothering to mention a headache, it’s worse than my average ones.
Finally as far as brainweird goes, at least some of y’all have (probably?) noticed I suck at communication with you sometimes, in terms of getting the idea across to you that I am trying to convey without something being lost between my words and what you hear. I’ll just… look, I’m not clinically diagnosed because nobody will see me as an adult, but pretend I’m autistic when you interact with me and see if that makes some of me make more sense? It’s helped ME make more sense of me and the world, if I apply that overlay to things, so… yeah. But maybe I just suck at communication! Whatever the case may be, always feel welcome to ask me to clarify or try again, etc, if you can’t parse my sentences, IC or OOC.
Jan 28, 2016 10:48 AM
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