Bored and enticed by the beach.
Meir could not imagine wanting specifically to go to the beach because of pure boredom, but that was likely because of his general inclination to try and stay in forests. Maybe mountains. Just anywhere that was not a beach, really. Open areas did not suit him as much, nor did the mountains as very little grew there. That’s why forests were one of his favourite.
Rufus explained he had to let Savannah know she was not in trouble. Meir nodded, but he wasn’t that clear on whether she agreed with allowing him to go and find her. He would, after he’d done what needed to be done.
Rufus’ voice was tired. Meir understood why, but they were all tired, weren’t they? What a trio they were. Tired. Broken.
Did he have plans to stay at the beach for a while, though? Well, that depended on Kamaal’s plans. He looked at her, eyes questioning, but their gazes met and Kamaal seemed to be questioning him, as well. Did she want to know if he was staying? Hadn’t he already mentioned going there with her. Or maybe that wasn’t what he was asking. Meir wondered. Meir could not answer it, though.
Kamaal reassured Rufus before Meir could answer, so he decided to wait until Kamaal had finished talking before formulating a reply that was hard for him to talk about, and likely similarly hard for Rufus to think about, if he cared.
Meir wasn’t sure who cared anymore. He had lost faith.
If everyone he cared about left, then who was to say Rufus would not, either, the moment he say he had to go. Mari, too. Maybe even Cypress, who he had never had the slightest bad interaction with.
Kamaal offered that Meir went with Rufus, but he had other things to do. He had to go and see the others. Say goodbye. Kamaal knew that, surely? She had to find Ares, so he would go with her to the caves, then collect those he needed. Aran. He needed to find Aran and bring him along.
“Rufus, I’m… I might be, yes,” Meir replied. It was hard to phrase and get out. “I might go to other places… I don’t know. But… I don’t think I’m returning to the caves. Not… not as Kin, anyway.”
He looked at the ground and kicked around at the wet leaves.
“I’m sorry, Rufus. I didn’t want to have to leave, but I think it’ll be better for Talio and I…” he explained genuinely. “I’d like to maybe visit, though… If you’ll let me.”
And for Kamaal… Well, he wasn’t going just yet.
“I’d like to go back to the caves, say goodbye.” Collect Aran. “Then I’ll be headed to the beach. With… with Kamaal. I can talk to Savannah then, if you want. If she’s there.”
He lifted his gaze back up to Rufus. He just wanted to help, he wanted to make others happy, but the situation was too difficult, right now. He felt like there was hardly anything else he could do. And he prepared himself for another loss. Like Talio. Like Romulus. Like Zahrah. Like Halwyn. Like everyone.
And he blamed himself.
Jul 13, 2017 10:38 AM — Post #11
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